Monday, October 18, 2010

Comparison.

Dear parents,
Have you both been wondering why,
I am hiding in my room the whole day?
I don't like to communicate with both of you?
I can tolerate your anger for so long?

No matter how many facts are said from my mouth,
You will still take it as I'm lying.
Why can't you trust me at first in order to gain my trust?
What else could I say, when you already said them all?

I have nothing to talk with both of you already.
You ask, I tell.
That's all.
No more craps, I mean it.

Why the heck are you comparing me to your friend's children?
Even if they're so obedient,
Why are you scolding me when you're comparing them to me?
If they're so good, adopt them and forsake me then?

No matter how hard I tried to be the so-called obedient child,
You'll still take it as not good enough.
Sometimes I even asked myself,
Why am I doing these to please you when you'll still get angry in the end?

I had tolerated your anger for so long.
Remember you asked me to leave this house?
You taunted me so badly.
One day, I will. Trust me. It's just the matter of time.

Why the heck are you comparing me to my brother / sister?
No matter how successful / failure they can be,
What's the link to me?
Why are you telling me that they're doing bad?
It's not like I'm for sure going to be the same as them.
Now, even if I did, it's because of you, I did.

Scolded me and I say you're always scolding me,
You said, it's not called as scolding, it's called as saying.
Why are you 'saying' me when I'm so innocent?
Do you think I'm not matured enough?

Limits, I have them, do you?
Scolding me like no tomorrow, you think it's fun?
You're so freaking wrong.
You'll never reflect whatever you said to me, to YOURSELVES.

I have nothing else to say, except FUCK MY LIFE.

Signed by a broken heart,
Feo
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