Tuesday, October 26, 2010

True friends.

True friends walk in when everybody else walks out.
Darkness, led me to my true friends.
I began to understand, why there is darkness in this world.
Darkness, the creation of God.

When I was alone in the darkness,
These friends, walked to me.
When I was fulfilled with my sad past,
These friends, gave me a space, to share them.

I may not guarantee that they will not forsake me like what you did,
But at least they did not forsake me now.
Without them, you'll already be able to find my tombstone.
True friends do make differences.

Don't be sad because I did not forgive you,
Be happy because I did not forgive you.
I hereby hope that you can find a bestfriend, who is better than I am.
And also forget me, just like what I almost did it till you came back.

Signed by a broken heart,
Feo
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Monday, October 18, 2010

Comparison.

Dear parents,
Have you both been wondering why,
I am hiding in my room the whole day?
I don't like to communicate with both of you?
I can tolerate your anger for so long?

No matter how many facts are said from my mouth,
You will still take it as I'm lying.
Why can't you trust me at first in order to gain my trust?
What else could I say, when you already said them all?

I have nothing to talk with both of you already.
You ask, I tell.
That's all.
No more craps, I mean it.

Why the heck are you comparing me to your friend's children?
Even if they're so obedient,
Why are you scolding me when you're comparing them to me?
If they're so good, adopt them and forsake me then?

No matter how hard I tried to be the so-called obedient child,
You'll still take it as not good enough.
Sometimes I even asked myself,
Why am I doing these to please you when you'll still get angry in the end?

I had tolerated your anger for so long.
Remember you asked me to leave this house?
You taunted me so badly.
One day, I will. Trust me. It's just the matter of time.

Why the heck are you comparing me to my brother / sister?
No matter how successful / failure they can be,
What's the link to me?
Why are you telling me that they're doing bad?
It's not like I'm for sure going to be the same as them.
Now, even if I did, it's because of you, I did.

Scolded me and I say you're always scolding me,
You said, it's not called as scolding, it's called as saying.
Why are you 'saying' me when I'm so innocent?
Do you think I'm not matured enough?

Limits, I have them, do you?
Scolding me like no tomorrow, you think it's fun?
You're so freaking wrong.
You'll never reflect whatever you said to me, to YOURSELVES.

I have nothing else to say, except FUCK MY LIFE.

Signed by a broken heart,
Feo
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Monday, October 11, 2010

Friend or foe?

Chances are given to be appreciated.
Promises are meant to be kept.
You came back.
But as a friend or a foe?

As I said earlier,
Let the past be the past.
I don't mean, forget the past.
I mean, forget you.

Nobody knows me, I'm cold, walk down this road all alone.
It's no one's fault but my own, it's the path I've chosen to go.
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so.
It had been approximately 7 months, why haven't you forget me?

I thought you know me well, but you don't.
I've tolerated every single anger, attitude and harmful words of yours.
I tolerated everything by myself, do you know that?
I've no one to share my stuffs with, for exactly five months.

I don't blame you for forsaking me.
I don't blame you for stealing my light.
I don't blame you for every single mistake you've done.
I don't blame you for leaving me in the darkness all alone.

But why did you apologize?
Why don't you just live your life so I'll live mine?
You came back, and hurt me more by apologizing.
Had you ever wondered, how would I feel if you apologized?

I shall say, you came back as a foe.
Foe, why are you torturing me?
Foe, why are you forcing me to make choices?
Foe, why are you apologizing?

Signed by a broken heart,
Feo
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Wednesday, October 6, 2010

The thief of light.

The darkness, is blocking my eyesight.
I can see nothing but darkness.
The darkness, is leading my way.
I can do nothing but follow the darkness.

I was forsaken in the darkness.
You left me here, all alone.
I have no one but darkness.
Slowly, I'm in love with the darkness.

You came back, and shone me with your light.
I used to love the light.
But what you did is steal the light from me and forsake me.
Can I call you a thief for stealing my light?

You could have shone your light at me earlier,
I gave you the chance to do so.
But now, I'm too used to darkness.
I don't need your light anymore.

Now, you ask me to forgive you.
But it's the second time you did this to me.
How would I know,
If there's third time you forsake me?

If I forgive you,
You might hurt me again.
If I don't forgive you,
I won't get hurt by you, but myself, for not forgiving you.

You gave me only two options.
I have no other choices.
Still, I choose to not forgive you because,
I rather hurt myself than letting you hurt me again.

Signed by a broken heart,
Feo
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